When I hear the word reservation, I think of doubts.
And you know what I have doubts about? New year resolutions.
The new year brings so many stories, posts, and advertisements expressing something along the lines of “new year, new me”.
But here’s the thing – I am not a natural optimist.
As my mom always puts it, “I’m not a pessimist – I’m a realist.”
So as optimistic as many are in the new year about life changes – I can’t help but hold reservations.
Don’t get me wrong – there are always new goals I want to achieve and see happen….but being the type of person I am, I always doubt if change will really occur.
Maybe that’s just a reflection of my self. Maybe it’s because I’m guilty of setting resolutions and then not following through. (So, rationally, I haven’t set a new year resolution for the past 5 years….)
But I also think it’s because if you really want to change something in your life – you just do it. You don’t have to wait for a new year to start. You don’t want to wait that long.
I think that was a big reason of why I started this blog. I wanted to change something in my life. I didn’t know what, I didn’t know how. But I wanted something to be different.
So I opened my laptop and started typing.
And you know what? I think it’s helping. I think putting words down helps people process feelings and thoughts.
I feel different. But not because it’s a new year. It’s because I’ve been putting into words what I feel about things happening in my life. It’s not internalized anymore. (Minus the past two weeks – because life is busy and I literally did not have computer access to type anything. And I think my sanity suffered for it.)
I don’t have a resolution for the new year.
But I am going to keep writing blogs.
And I think any changes that I really want will happen through that.
Happy New Year everyone!